"That Time or This Time?"

 

Well,

I invite you to tea again. Of course, as always, it's hypothetical.. and we are not actually..drinking tea.. but I really enjoy it with you, and I hope that you do too.

In fact, this MAY be one of them weeks where we meet for tea a couple of times…

So let's get to tea-worthy conversation. reading.

IF you were in church with me today, you may have noticed I had a puffy, red, splotchy face from crying all morning. Some of you seem to have noticed just by looking at the back of me… and were already asking what was wrong before eye contact could even be made.. (thanks for asking!)… and I said that I was ok.. it was just a rough morning..

……. and it was……………

but should it have been?????

well, in a sane world of even flowed hormones, probably not.

…………but it was…………

so it matters…to me, and it has to matter to Dennis…… even if we wants to blame it on some crazy amount of hormones, or "that time" coming.

"that time" is a blessing, whether we want to believe it or not.

"that time" has to be medicine induced…we have to pay for it (how crazy!)

and "that time" may be upon us.. (sorry gentleman)

and if "that time" comes… that means we didn't conceive our first child "this time."

………………….and that is ok……………………………

but this morning I couldn't get dressed.. nothing was fitting, looking right, and I had a husband wanting to make it to church before it was over.. and he got a little, ahem, huffy.

and you know what?????

instead of an eye roll… or a brief explanation, or even hurrying up,

I CRIED LIKE A GIRL……

and I DID NOT STOP FOR 2 hours!!!

sigh.

Although I despised feeling like a distraction to my sisters in Christ, I was glad to have the hormones flowin like the Niagara Falls… and my tears were flowin just the same!

I was thankful for "that time" possibly approaching.

and you know what?

even though "that time" means we didn't conceive "this time"; it means that we get another month to try with some inkling of hope…. and maybe next month there will be no "that time."

So some time this week we will be looking for "that time" to come, and I am preparing my heart for it. And when it comes, we may need to have tea again if I need to talk.

and if "that time" does not show up…. I may need to have lemonade with you instead of tea….. tea has caffeine in it!!!! (giggle giggle snort snort)

:)

flippin through…….

Flippin' through the channels, I found this… and it caused me a sudden unexpected feeling of excitement…..

and then as I looked at an actual BLUE sky with a few white clouds.. I felt even more lifted up………… (opposed to solid white here.. that makes me want to slip into a weeks coma..)  

I feel excited for racing season to start… it means its getting close to Spring and Summer…. 

and I cannot believe that I am looking forward to it.

Thanks NASCAR broadcasting for the uplifting scenery… I think I might have some motivation to clean the house!

He Orchestrated It So…

 

This morning was my first morning getting up to go to "work" all week because of snow.

I was not even sad because…. I won't be coming to school tomorrow either… why, you ask… because of SNOW of course!

And so while applying blush to my face this morning, I was grateful to God for orchestrating my life to allow me to actually enjoy snow.

LOTS of people hate it. I was wondering why…….

and this is what I came up with:

• They hate it because they have to deal with it.
• they have to push it
• they have to drive in it no matter what
• they have to shovel it
• I don't hate it because I don't have to deal with it:
• I don't push it
• I don't have to drive in it
• I don't have to shovel it

I DON'T have to do any of those things because GOD is great and orchestrated my days (so far) to allow me to look forward to it, and not dread it.

He did this by:

• Giving me a home in Salem that has a GREAT road clearing system. I am only "snowed in" at best, half a morning. I am never really "stuck."
• Giving me a "job" or "duty" that requires I report to a public school every morning that CLOSES school when snow comes so I don't have to get in my car…. everything stops when the white stuff falls.
• Giving me a husband who LOVES to shovel snow.. with a shovel, and more specifically, with a lawn mower with an attached blade.

So yea, why would I hate snow??????

I don't know let me count the way, I didn't spend 2 hours at walmart trying to get prescriptions filled in 40 minute lines, and not being able to move your buggy because there is someone there, so you just close your eyes, push your buggy out, and hope you don't get t-boned by an old lady with efferdent and depends in her buggy, and then wait in line to check out for 30 more minutes..

I don't! I love it

Really, I do.

Wal-Mart can be avoided if I thought ahead.

Enjoy the snow coming!

Sunday School Class fun!

Just enjoy.

                  

Just a Game??

I guess I got cabin fever because of all the snow… and I invited my brother and Kyndall over to hang out and play monopoly! We had a TON of fun… Greg and I probably had not played that game together since we lived in the same house and hated each other. . .

The first game we played we were nice… we let each other just "go ahead" without paying if they were a little low on cash, we would even let them go back and re-throw the dice if we hit too many "Go to JAIL" rolls…. but when Dennis got home and restarted the game, he played like a dirty dog… and we had to just face the fact that Christianity did NOT exist within the confines of a monopoly game… and after all, it was: "JUST A GAME…"

  

You KNOW Mr. Canon (my camera) wanted to play…. but we told him to just stick to his expertise area.. and that is taking crystal clear pictures of tiny houses on monopoly property!!! :)   

And if ONLY I could really have this much money in real life…. I'd be happy………… :) (NOT!)

If you care…….

 

If you'd care to have a cup of tea with me, I'd like to share with you some random thoughts with you. Let's just say that even though I write and record my life on this blog for you all to read and participate in, I do this mainly for me. Over the year and a half that I have faithfully updated to this blog, I have been able to go back and see how God has worked in our life. It reminds me of a song that we sang a couple weeks ago at church:

"All my changes have come from him, he who NEVER changes…"

and through the recording of days and seasons of this blog, I can go back through and see how he has been so mighty.

I am hoping to record much more life on here… such as new additions to our family, maybe an expansion of our home, graduation day coming up in May, and of course more photoshoots! I love blogging, but I love living this life even more. Even those weeks when not a lot is happening (on the blog), God is still actively present and comforting, faithful and true, mighty and supreme, and still our protector and anchor.

He has saved us from much, blessed us with much, and I am so thankful for this avenue in which you get to share in it with me.

Let's do tea together soon…

Fernandez Family Photos

 The Fernandez family asked for ONE family photo, and it took me two different times to get one… but while we were looking for the one perfect photo, I managed to snap a few good ones of their little girls: Vivian and Kate. :) Vivian is the oldest, and Kate is the baby sister. Lisa and Aaron are very special friends of ours.

Thanks Lisa & Aaron for allowing me to take photos of your precious little family.