Reconciliation tis so sweet..

 

Have a seat, and read awhile.

If you know me, you know that I am a pretty "open" person. As open as possible. And when I am feeling like I love Dennis, I write about it, I draw "I <3 U Dennis" in the snow…. I even frame cards he has bought me.. I do love him. But the truth of the matter is, our marriage was not a threat to Satan until recently…. (because it was not glorifying God)

We got serious about pursuing holiness, and by coming together as a true union, like God intended for it to be, and ending this "fake" stuff. It comes down to: "pursue Christ with a white hot passion, or get off the court kind of thing" and by making the better choice………. we ticked off Satan a little bit.

In an effort to change myself and become like Christ, I have had to learn how to pray in a manner that exposes every ounce of sin I can find from my toenails to the dead ends of my hair. God has been faithful to wash away the junk of laziness, complacency,  and has given me a saved mind. Hallelujah! Yes??

It's evident to us what happened by the night we had last night at home. We got into a knock down, drag out, fight. (or is it… knock out, drag down?? Hmm) Over what? I don't even know now.. but whatever it was, made our home reflect something other than what I was describing above. I mean, I was not budging, he was not budging, and he was even in another room to sleep. I was furious. I called him a name!!!!!!! I knew the scripture, never let the sun go down on anger …..yea, yea. …….DIDN'T MATTER. I was NOT laying down on this. WAS NOT.

Why?

Pride.

Because Satan tried to see to it that I woke up the next morning feeling inadequate, sinful, heartless, and not confident in the blood of Christ. He likes to whisper the lie that God will turn his face from me when I try to approach the throne with my requests.  That he would not love or care for me. That because I have acted so selfishly, that my communion with God does not exist.

Lie.

Also, there is more to try to defeat.

If two people are continually coming to the Lord as a married couple on a nightly basis, it would make it nearly impossible to "fall." To have a day at work and not come to the Lord with thankfulness, and gratitude, asking for sin to be revealed, to storm the gates of heaven with the requests for the church… how awesome that would be for Satan.

So, nearly the moment we decided that our walk with the Lord and with each other would be stepped up…. dramatically…. the moment that we became just SICK and TIRED of this day in/day out routine void of the living God……Satan came QUICK to tempt, and manipulate….and try to destroy this wonderful union God put together. He would come to destroy our  nightly prayer routine, or my morning time with God… he could create all the condemnation within my heart to prevent me from doing it anytime soon. Who gets the glory if I were to fall for that?

Satan was sneaky… but not sneaky enough. We knew what was happening while it was happening. I luckily have a husband that will snuggle up to a cold heart (me) and say:

"Satan is trying to separate us , and we shouldn't let him."

and then the tears fell knowing full well that we were in the presence of the great manipulator. The master of lies and deceit. . the very enemy of God… but God was victorious in swooping us up into his arms and allow us to reconcile and rest in each others arms.

A mighty and faithful God I love and serve.