Well, the ovaries FINALLY got the memo

I am PROUD, and SHOCKED to announce that the follicles that I mentioned last week have released an egg!

I really started to believe that because of my lack of temperature spike, or what I thought was a lack of temperature spike, meant that I did not ovulate and that I was destined to start this round of medicine completely over. . . well, Nurse Tammy says she is sure that I ovulated!

For many women, this miraculous thing happens every single month with no trouble. Because I do not naturally produce enough progesterone, my ovaries never get the memo! Well, they got the memo.

So, being appropriately busy the past week or so, we are instructed to wait 10-14 days for a new cycle, or possibly, maybe, hopefully, a positive pregnancy test.

BUT LISTEN UP= = =

DO NOT THINK THAT I WILL BE BUMMED OUT IF WE DO NOT COME UP PREU GNANT THIS MONTH….. of course, we want to be,

BUT WE ARE THANKFUL THAT MY BODY IS WORKING THE WAY THAT IT SHOULD….

I have been dealing with fertility issues for NEARLY THREE years..

I've obsessed, I've been jealous, I've been bitter, I have been a lot of things…

mad at God is not one of them…..

I have learned to trust Him with my life, and my body, and I continue to rely on his unfailing love for our lives. .

THIS WILL NOT BE THE END OF ME.. IF WE DID NOT CONCEIVE….

SO…

PLEASE…..

KNOW THAT…..

and if I tell you that we were not successful this month, do not feel the need to comfort or console me, or remind me that this is ok, blah blah blah………..

I am THRILLED that God has seen fit to allow this much to happen, and we are happy.

BUT…….

in three or four more months, when this medicine may be coming to an end, and we may not have baby securely placed in belly, I might need you to console me……

but for now, Let's just celebrate and be happy! I am!

** By the way, I have a TON of posts that I need to make, but have not had the opportunity… so look out tomorrow….

It MIGHT have something to do with Kate….

 

Welcome Luke!

 

 

Luke Ivan Mordechai Dellinger

Born Sunday, January 17, 2009

to Jacob & Molly

  

Congrats guys, he is a beauty!!! :)

And we have two, and a runt…..

_** Note, I took the picture off of the blog..I wanted you to see it. If you want me to forward you a photo, not that you care, i will… but I wanted to take it off because I did not have written permission…:) Just google it! ***

 

So.. I went to the doctor today. And for those of you wondering: "What the heck is a follicle anyway??" I found a picture for you. This is a picture of what is happening to me right now, times 2 and a half! :)

We got an encouraging report today that we have two of those follicular cysts, and one little one on the left. We will call that one our little: "runt."

This does not mean that these eggs have released, and it does not mean that they will. I will go back next week, January 29th to get some blood work done to see for sure.

IF they released, we wait for my next cycle, or a little baby….

If they did not release, then we go back to square one and up the dosage, which I talked about. :)

This is such an encouraging time for us. We are so excited and celebratory for each one of God's blessings in this process. We pray that we would remain faithful in celebrating his blessings, even if this does not result in a child for us.

Thanks for being apart of this process, and we love you for checking the blog!

Have a cup of tea with me….

Well, it is a hypothetical cup of tea. . . so I hope that you enjoy.

I go back to school tomorrow. This marks the very last semester I will spend in school, or well, college that is. This is when everything I have been learning will come to fruition, hopefully. I am really excited.

I will be teaching the third grade. I will miss my cutie first graders, but I trust that the Lord will create a love for these new children that I am about to meet. New beginnings are so exciting. I am looking forward to it.

Speaking of new beginnings, I went through my first round of fertility drugs and I will see if my body (my ovaries) responded to the medicine, and we will then know if we have released an egg to fertilize. I am hopeful that we did. If I did not respond to this doseage, we will up it to 100 mg per day. Oh, and if we did release an egg, we will know Thursday, and then that begins the two week wait to see if we have a little life within. Oh, patience is a virtue, yes?

I don't have any major side effects from the medicine, so that is good. (I did have a little, well, big, mood swing the other day, and I luckily have a pretty forgiving husband, and he got over it… )

So please remain in prayer for a responding body to medicine…

It was fun having a tea together, let's do it again soon.

 

Last weekends photos

This is a photo of Dennis running the race on his marathon last weekend. I was able to get a copy of his photo from their website. I am still so amazed at him for taking on that challenge. :)

I guess its no surprise he has not run one day since! :)

I do not blame him! If I knew the website and the way that he accessed the codes I would show more, but I do not know how to get to it.

If she shows me I will be sure to include a few more! :)

Hope all is having a happy Friday!

Sopped up in his Goodness. . .

Prayer.

"Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him anointing him with oil  in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins , he will be forgiven. Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. Elijah was a man with a nature like ours. and he prayed fervently that it might not rain and for three years and six months it did not rain on the earth. Then he prayed again, and heaven gave rain, and the earth bore its fruit. My brothers, if anyone among you wanders from the truth and someone brings him back, let him know that whoever brings back a sinner  from his wandering will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins. "

James 5:13-20

What power we have in prayer.  

The winner: Kristen Bolling

Congratulations, Kristen.

You were the first one to guess correctly!

We will set up a time soon to get together to take MORE photos of your lovely little munchkins!

 

The secret project revealed

A bookshelf. An old, raggety bookshelf that I found downstairs… so I carried it up ALL BY MY SELF.. and I went to the Sherwin Williams, got the paint… and the rest are in pictures.. enjoy

                  

Oh, the paintbrush……….

picture look familiar? Ahh…. the secret picture……. 

 

So.. I was so proud of my work… that I did not want to get rid of the paintbrush.. so I nailed it to the bookshelf! :)

Dennis was pleased. He liked it.. and I think he was a little shocked at my handy work.

Who won?!?!? Well,

I will reveal that tomorrow. Thank you all for your your guesses…….. it was a lot of fun reading them……… 

p

My special little project

 

I have a little something prepared for Dennis when he comes home. And the clue is here. I have already told some of you what I did, but because he still has time before getting on the plane to check the internet from the ipod, I've gotta keep this secret. But around 4:00 today when we finally get home, he will see the bigger picture…. and so will you guys! I have a whole story, a big string of pictures, and I cannot wait! :) So if you are wanting to guess, and you get it right, (if I have not already told you) I might give away a little photshoot or something. So, take a guess. ..  and who knows, even if you are not right, I still might give it away;.

Oh Shoot, let's just go for it.

IF YOU DON'T ALREADY KNOW….

leave a comment with your guess….

and two things could happen:

(1) the person who answers correctly first gets the shoot…

OR

(2) The person who answers first gets the shoot

IF

no one answers correctly.

So there is nothing to lose hear…

Guess away! But ya better hurry…….

once final pictures are posted….

times up!

:)

a good long post about us……

I am going to write a long post. And there won't be any pictures. So if you have a short attention span, or you don't have time, or you might not be interested, then maybe you should come back another time. And I warn you, I might do a little rambling. Try to follow me.

First off, there are things happening here.

Lots of things are happening.

Lots of things I won't talk about, and some I will.

Marriage.

Marriage is tough. It is such a complex thing. A odd union that God created, and I see it unfold often why he chose the man he chose for me. Sometimes I am thrilled, and sometimes, jus bein honest, I wonder why… Dennis…….. and why me, for Dennis. But then he goes on a marathon.

He left on Friday. for Florida to run a marathon. I hugged him on Friday morning and looked forward to some home alone time. I got it. I got it until Monday at 2:55 p.m. So then I go to bed, and then I wonder: "Are the doors locked? Are the windows locked? "Wonder if Harper will be mean if someone comes in.." "Nah!" I decide. These thoughts don't come through my mind unless Dennis is gone. I love that I trust him with my life. That snuggling into him and going to sleep calms my worried soul at the end of the day. But I don't tell him this. . . don't be silly. ;)

Anyway, but other than these sweet moments. We are a real live married couple. It was not until my 24th birthday that I felt like an adult. And now that I am an adult, I feel that married is more…………real…………. more important……… more than just two kids who are living together……with gold bands……….which I see a lot in my brother and his new bride. The measure of my growth comes from them I think.

An Adult, Now.

So I guess in a nut shell, this weekend, I felt like a woman. for the first time, ever.

because I did things, women do.

like:

I did a project. (I can't tell… he might read before coming home)

I loaded up wood all day for 4 days. Which real women do by the way, lol.

I shut down our house every night. (Dennis' job)

I made decisions without calling Dennis.

I didn't act like a kid.

I didn't let the house get bad, I didn't let it smell.

I didn't just pile things up and then clean it later.

I took care of things.

If he died, I could live. I wouldn't like it, but I could do it.

So congratulate me, I'm not a kid anymore.

Fertility.

some have some great luck having children.

Some women smell their husband, BAM, baby.

Some women, refuse, and still, BAM, baby.

Some women have husbands that are clipped, and BAM, baby.

Some women plan to have a baby, and BAM, baby.

and then……there are some…..women….. (ahem, that is me now.)…………. that try…….and try……….and try…………. and wish……….pray………..hope……………wait………. and NO BABY.

and that is me, now, too.

we have waited.

I went from the hopeful, oh my goodness we can actually have a baby, phase….

to…..

Hey, we are not having any luck, phase…….

to……..

this is painful, everyone we know is starting families phase……….

to……..

Oh, no something must be wrong phase…….

to………..

that's ok, we will just wait, and I will go back to school phase..

to………

ok, I am almost out of school and still no baby, so maybe we better……

get on fertility drugs……phase………

so……

that is what we are doing.

Yes.

I am starting some fertility treatments. And we hope they work. and we want your prayers for this process.

Details?

I won't bore you.

I will just say they are mild, inexpensive, and they usually work with people with my disease.

School.

in four months…

i will be finished with school

I will be a certified teacher (k-6)

I will DEFINETELY be an adult then…

I will have a bachelors degree….

and hopefully, I will walk across that stage… pregnant.

Home.

We live in a small house.

small.

we love our small house, but we don't always love the neighborhood.

the neighborhood is not bad…. but it's not a real neighborhood………. its more like we live off of a very busy street… we know two neighbors.

so, its ok

but God has given it to us, and we think this gift is sufficient and plenty for our family… and we know that we want me to be home, raising our children, (if there are any)…….

so we have a small house, but it might get bigger.

We will see.

We might add on.

We might not.

We want to.

so…………………………………………………………………….

I think I have it all covered.

And I hope that Dennis does not mind that I just aired all our BIZ-ness.

Thanks for listening.

Dennis is in Disney running the Marathon!

I grabbed this picture off of another website… but this weekend, (Sunday) Dennis is running the 26.2 Marathon in Florida with Pat, Toph, Aaron, and Bill.

I am very proud of him yet I am very nervous for his body taking on that. He has been preparing, but I don't know if he is prepared enough for that mileage. Hopefully God will grant him grace as he runs tomorrow. Please pray for endurance and health. 

Anyway, while he is gone, I;m enjoying some quiet time…

I go back to school the 20th of January!

Wii ate Seafood. (snort snort)

 We went to Natural Bridge for all you can eat seafood the other night. It was delicious! Afterwards we went to my dads house and spent some time with them. It was a fun night. Enjoy the photos!